Hello everyone!
As you can probably tell from the title of this post, I am announcing a fresh start for my blog.
My little blog will be ten years old in just over six months and, with me wanting to get back into it more, it felt a bit disjointed and like I was building on something I didn't want as part of my public story.
I have been through a lot of changes and challenges in the past few years and my old blog posts reflected a side of me I no longer wanted to associate with. I looked back at old posts, like my monthly reviews, and saw photos that I wasn't happy with.
If you follow me on Instagram, you may have seen a recent sequence of stories where I shared my issues with my weight. If you didn't see it, I've copied the screenshots below so that the next part makes a bit more sense:
As you can see, working on my mental health and overcoming an eating disorder have been key moments for me over the last few years. This was alongside - possibly brought on by - other personal matters. Recovery is possible and I feel so much better now than I did five years ago. Just before the pandemic was my lowest point. During lockdown, I actually found some things to keep me occupied (blogging, reading, bullet journalling) and I still worked during this time as a teaching assistant, both in school in "bubbles" and from home, completing online courses and training.
However, this was not enough to stop what I was going through. Thinking about it now, it probably made it worse because I was burying how I really felt and layering "hobbies" and "distractions" on top of what became a real crisis point in my life.
I don't want to dwell on it too much now. I'd rather focus on how I've come out the other side with some great people around me for support and acknowledge that I'm in a much better place now. Seeing old photos from my monthly reviews where I'd written about how happy I was doing certain activities when it just wasn't how I felt deep down. Reading posts from a time when I was deeply unhappy, yet trying to sound positive. They might have been interesting to anyone reading them but, looking back, they felt almost fake. They were real and in the moment of certain things, maybe I was happy at times, but after everything I've been through I just felt it was time to part ways with some of my older posts and start anew.
So, I cleared a lot of my old blog posts. A few have been reverted to drafts so that I can write something similar in a new, more meaningful way. Some are recipes that I want to update and reshare when I've had the chance to make them again. A lot have been deleted because they are the more personal posts that I don't necessarily want to relive.
I write this blog for others to read and enjoy but I also write it for myself. Therefore, I hope those of you who read my old posts can understand why I am doing this and, if you're new around here, I hope you'll stick around for the new adventures.
Thank you,
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